Puzzled

A Christmas wish for peace, for the pain to lessen, and be filled with happy memories. We have opted out of a celebration this year, no decorations, no family gatherings, no gifts. Just the two of us, David and I, working a puzzle in unison, neither feeling the need to talk, appreciating the silent reprieve which allows us to grieve together. I wish there was such as thing as true bereavement leave. I'm not talking about taking a day or week off work to plan a service. I'm thinking more like the three months or more someone can take off work after having a baby. I would love nothing more than to hide out in a remote cabin in the mountains somewhere far away, to escape the forward movement of time for awhile, returning when I'm ready not when someone says my time has run out.